For God so loved who? You!

Today someone came to our door and left Christain literature.They call themselves seed sowers and want nothing except to spread the good news.

They gave us a colorful paper with John 3:16 on it. They want us to place it in a frame and hang it up in our home.This isn’t the first time we have recieved literature such as this. It was a wonderful message and one i wholeheartedly welcome.It’s nice to be reminded when you’re in the thick of things that God loves you.

“For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.”

One Moment At A Time

“When I am anxious it is because I am living in the future.  When I am depressed it is because I am living in the past.”  – Author Unknown

For those of us trauma survivors the past can be a never ending thing.Because much of our perspective and values were learned in childhood – we learned to look at life through broken pieces of glass.Everything we learned served us well  because it protected us through many difficult times.As I come out of the darkness and grow into adulthood I realize that much of what I have learned  no longer serves me.The old ways of thinking and coping only bring more trouble.My life became engulfed in depressive thoughts.My old memories kept coming back to haunt me and when I looked to the future it was met with fear.

We humans are pretty silly.We spend our time running from the past and pining away for a better future yet we never take the time to really heal.A big part of my recovery is just giving myself permission to go through what I need to go through.Because we are so busy doing things we think we should be doing, we stifle our grief and pain and keep going through the motions.We miss out on the simplest things.We never know what we are missing because we have settled for those old notions.

One of the most important lessons Jesus taught was to live one day at a time.I have taken His teaching to heart and learned to practice it in my life.For today, I am going to let myself feel sad.For today, I am going to express my anger in a healthy way.As I slowly express & release my pain,as I give it a voice- I make room for new things to grow.For today, I am going to spend time with my loved ones.For today, I am going to breathe in the fresh air and appreciate all the gift’s God has given me.God has pretty big shoulders.He can take our pain,anger and despair. He wants to free us from the traumas of our past.

When I live in the moment I can live in hope.When I need to cry out to God He is with me.No person can take on the world by themselves.We need each other and we absolutely need God.He knows how much I can handle and He is always willing to accept me even when I’m in the wrong.Turning to God is one of the best decisions I have ever made.

I think it requires some courage in order to heal. It’s tough re living old situations that scarred me. When I place Christ at the centre of my healing I am filled with His love and safety.As I learn to grieve what was lost and then give it to God every day I feel a bit better.

The past was horrible.But today doesnt have to be.When we live one day at a time we can cherish what’s right in front of us.We dont need to look back with regret.We don’t have to continue focusing on everything that went wrong.When I accepted Jesus into my heart  the old script changed.Becoming a believer,learning God’s word has helped shaped my thoughts and beliefs.I can shed the old ones and embrace what Jesus says.I have the gift of God’s powerful love on my side.I have a hope that abides no matter what this world throws at me.

I am a work in progress. Because I am human I have days where I fall down.I am His creation. He is the potter and I am the clay. Nothing will magically disappear over night.Yet as I allow Him in, when I open myself up to Christ, He cleanses me and heals me bit by bit.

One Day At A Time Sweet Jesus

I’m only human, I’m just a woman.
Help me believe in what I could be
And all that I am.
Show me the stairway, I have to climb.
Lord for my sake, teach me to take
One day at a time.

Chorus:
One day at a time sweet Jesus
That’s all I’m asking from you.
Just give me the strength
To do everyday what I have to do.
Yesterday’s gone sweet Jesus
And tomorrow may never be mine.
Lord help me today, show me the way
One day at a time.

Do you remember, when you walked among men?
Well Jesus you know if you’re looking below
It’s worse now, than then.
Cheating and stealing, violence and crime
So for my sake, teach me to take
One day at a time.

(Chorus)