For many people reading this they will not understand what I’m saying. But for those of you who are open to hearing a message about God then this is for you. I’ll start off by saying that there have been plenty of storms and crisis through out my life. In fact for the first 25 years that’s all i knew. After going through so many storms I began to doubt God’s existence, was angry with Him for allowing me to suffer in such horrifying ways.It kept me away from spirtuality and away from God Himself.

They say the definition of insanity is doing the same thing again and again and expecting different results. Many of us do exactly that. We fall into the same traps and similar situations and either personalize it or blame others. We never really look at trials with a God perspective. I went through so many situations where I was left alone to shoulder the storm. I never actually examined my choices or motivations, I merely survived as a survivor does.It was only after losing absolutely everything did I bother to look to God.

After twenty something years of trying to do things my way, I decided to try God.Pills never worked, friends and boyfriends never worked, jobs, materials, therapies I mean nothing I tried ever lasted long.I got tired of falling in the same holes over and over again.I began to take a step back and examine why i was having traumatic experiences over and over.

God doesnt promise us a pain free life or that tragedy wont come our way.But He does promise to be there with us through it, He does promise that it is never for nothing. I have enough tragic reasons to never listen to God. But I choose to anyway. It’s all about taking a tiny step in faith.

When your life is starting to come apart at the seams it’s for a reason. You are a child of God with a plan and purpose for your life.Often the choices we make or the patterns we repeat will progressively get worse until we come to a new awareness. When our lives are going upside down there is always a lesson we are being taught if we can ask God to help us see it.

Why do we suffer a loss of a loved one? Why must we go through hardships, we have so many questions. I know from personal experience that everything I have suffered wasnt for nothing. When things fall apart you can look at it two ways – break down or break through.Sometimes the way we are living is unhealthy for us and our loved ones.Crisis is natures way of letting us know something is wrong.We can throw band aids on it to avert the immediate symptoms, we can say use drugs or alcohol or negative relationships to get us through, but ultimately until we address the core wounds they will never be solved.

Just as a loving parent we discipline our children, so must God discipline us. We can’t see God’s purposes and we can’t always see what He has in store for us. just as children think it’s unfair to be disciplined by their parents.Children cannot see that their parents are acting in their best interests.But He surely can’t bless or save us when there are life lessons to be learned.And we surely can’t just hand things to our children and think they will be okay without them learning.

for me, I got tired of repeating patterns.I still make mistakes and I still have trouble obeying God. but whenever I’ve given Him even a tiny chance to be in my life He shows up.He doesnt come and answer my prayers and give me everything I want. He gives me what I need. He is the leader of my life and through His unfailing love He gives me the grace to keep on this journey.

The sky isnt falling. your world is merely saying it cannot continue in the same way anymore.Sometimes things have to fall apart so we can re build our lives in a healthy way. So we can live the life we are truly meant to live.What blessings are abound if we could learn to seek God in our trials, to recieve His love and comfort and infinite wisdom.Crisis asks us to re evaluate, seek God, and address what’s broken. God longs to heal our brokenness.If only we would let Him.