“Faith is the daring of the soul to go farther than it can see.” – Unknown

It frustrates me at times at how fast I can lose my faith. Faith is believing without any proof.We’re not angels who’ve had the privelege of always being in God’s presence. We’re human beings who have been given a choice. We have free will to go our own way or to have faith in the Lord.

In a decaying and troubled world, it is so easy to look around and ask where God is in all of this.I still see God with my immature human eyes.I see God through my trauma, through my pain and fear.As soon as I encounter trouble I get angry with God and begin to doubt His existence.

I’m grateful for the gift of grace and love through Jesus Christ.  I’m thankful that God never gets fed up with me, and that He never turns away.  He is the God of second, third and even fourth chances.  His mercies are anew every day.

I have suffered through many painful experiences in my life.  I saw too much at such a young age. I have endured abuse, poverty and have had to struggle to survive much of my life.  So many times I felt like giving up.  I was self destructive. I had no hope. And I was an atheist.

Since turning my life over to God, since inviting Jesus into my life, nothing has been the same.  Sometimes it’s an on again off again thing.  Because I still have a lot of healing to do.  And I often hear the gospel wrong.

I think people who have endured trauma and abuse need to hear a special gospel. I think people who have been hurt by people who call themselves Church Leaders need it too. So much happens to us by people who claim to be Christian.They ruin the chance for people to know the love of Christ.

Every day is a challenge. I can choose to throw my faith away and lean on my own strength.Because I’ve learned that I can only rely on myself.Because I dont want to be bamboozled. Some days we want proof. When trust has been violated and broken – it becomes even harder to trust God.

Today I challenge you to believe in a higher power. I challenge you to have faith in something bigger than yourself.

 My eleven yr old daughter put it ever so eloquently. We were driving in the car on Sunday and I remarked that it was the first time in my life that I felt I had real hope.That I had more good days to look forward to.She responded by saying,”I think when you have faith in God you always have good things to look forward to.”

I want to return to innocence.I want to have faith like a little child.

 Luke 18:15-17 

[15] People were also bringing babies to Jesus to have him touch them. When the disciples saw this, they rebuked them. [16] But Jesus called the children to him and said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these. [17] I tell you the truth, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it.”